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  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: The Stainless Steel Rat
  • Watching: OTA TV
  • Playing: Day Z
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
Well I just installed a new heatsink, against my better judgment I've been running for about a year on a tiny little heatsink for a 80-90w CPU I had laying around when my liquid cooler died. The immediate results of installing it are fantastic. I had a small army of fans, internal and external, blowing on my system to keep it cool but with my new heatsink installed I'm down to just the one and its not even trying that hard rite now. I've had problems with my system getting to warm to do anything regardless of ambient temps but now things are cool enough that I can crank up the voltage and clock speed of my CPU back up to where it should be and not worry about cooking the most important part of my system.

I'm not to happy with the configuration of the heat sink because my Motherboard is really awkward in my case. I think of the 3-5 heat sinks I've had installed in this case maybe 1-2 where venting in the rite direction, i.e. out the back exhaust fan. Pretty much my fan is currently drawing air from up against the partition above my power supply and venting everything towards my video card. I'll come up with a way to work around that shortly so it doesn't run the risk of over heating my GPU during gaming or rendering when such a time comes around.

The options of orientation of the heatsink where much better for Intel socket types because the mounting plate is symmetrical in two axis however for AMD users the configuration of the screw holes prevents using the easy install plugs that would allow me to aim the exhaust of the small tower out the back of my case. I suppose its better than nothing because its doing a much better job by its self than 3-4 fans did in its absence. I had the CPU DC fan and a stacked fan of similar size on top of it with a fan controller plus a window fan outside my case blowing out any build up by keeping ambient air circulating, it was a high pressure vortex in my case. With the air pressure what it was before it was a wonder anything cooled off at all but it was effective enough to keep my CPU or Mobo from starting a weenie roast in my case. Now I see that it was all just a wonderful waste of time if I'd only been prepared enough before hand and gotten a heatsink that actually was designed to do the job of my jerry rigged solution to the problem.

I was a bit leery of changing out the heat sink in the first place because the history my CPU has had with the game of heatsink musical chairs I've played over the years. Prior to my liquid cooler I changed out the heatsinke with my room mate and bent a number of pins. When the liquid cooler died I discovered that my room mate (who installed it for me) slathered on to much thermal past to be efficient so I over taxed it and in the end killed it [the liquid cooler]. Further more when I pulled out the CPU to clean off the old gook I noticed that some of my pins have burn marks on them from repeated shorts in the bent pin territory.

While its working just fine now I had/have some very realistic fears that its not going to hold up to much longer. Hopefully it won't just start throwing errors out at me in spite of its user and give up the ghost to soon but we'll see. I haven't been to good to it over the years but at least its in better shape than its been for the recent past few months.

Update complete its time for me to go to work, I just got over a stomach bug that put me down for almost a week and now I have to live threw a 9 hour shift on a sabotaged sleep schedule. I came home yesterday and tried to take a nap which turned into me falling into a coma for 10 hours. I woke up this morning (?) at 11:30pm last night and I have to be to work at 6am (of which I'm leery I'll actually make on time but I digress)

cheers!
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: The Stainless Steel Rat
  • Watching: OTA TV
  • Playing: Day Z
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
I admit to being one of those people who paid $30-ish to play an awesome mod. From the moment I saw my first Youtube video I was hooked. I couldn't not play the game so I hopped on to Steam and warmed up my new debit card to make the purchase.

The past few days I've had a chance to play Day Z have been interesting, I'm sure best described as newb floundering. Today is an interesting example for a few reasons. As of rite now I'm chronicling the first experience with the human element as well as some surprising behavior I did not see coming out of the zombie horde immediately after it happened.

Well to start off I spawned in one of the regular spawn points outside a sea side freight yard and managed to find myself a hatchet straight off the bat. There is a warm place in my heart for the inclusion of melee weapons in the mod even if you don't start with one. In the past few days I haven't found a single fire arm but more than enough hatchets to defend myself with. I've actually gotten pretty good at defending myself in a face off of blunt objects, Zombies or otherwise.

After entering the freight yard I'd alerted a zombie or two of my presence and instead of trying to fight them off at a dead sprint I hustled into the warehouse where I come face to face with the second or third person I've seen since playing. Everyone else I've come a crossed has been woefuly unprepared as I am since most player on player action I've seen happens near the spawn points. We where on equal footing down to the hatchet we both wielded.

I looked at the player and made a decision to take a swipe at him and then take off running. I didn't intend to kill him but my instincts told me that if I wing him good enough to need a band aid he probibily wouldn't chase me. Turns out my instincts where right and he came at me after I took my cheap shot and ran. I made sure to run back out past a zombie to get a little bit of chaotic back up and as soon as he was out the door he took a swipe or two from zombie fingers as we both darted a crossed the pavement. I kept checking over my shoulder and made sure he was bleeding before taking the chance on defending myself. I was out of range and ever time he took a swing the zombie would take one at him until he thinned out his health.

When I stopped to deliver what I thought was the finishing blow he took the death throw swipe at me and broke my arm. Then, now low on blood, the zombie took a swing at me and broke my leg. I got the kill on the other guy and zombie, to my somewhat muted delight it was a bandit kill. Gomer had tried to get PvP kills deliverance style but the plan backfired. I was now pretty wounded to the point my screen was blurry and desaturated but I could still crawl. There was a town in the distance so I thought to myself, "what the hell, might as well go out in a mob of zombies..." and crawled my way a 1/4th mile to the closest building. I managed to pick up a few bandages (I never got to use) as well as some ammunition in the vein hope I'd actually find one of those mythical fire arms I've seen so much of on the You of tubes.

As I was doing the caterpillar threw the sea side town I managed to crawl up on some zombies. Death wish mode fueled, to my complete surprise, I managed to assassinate them with the hatchet from a throwing distance to your average trash can. Still looking for the final kicks of my current character I shimmied along further into town and made it almost to the other side before getting caught outside a house on the wrong side of a fence as two zombies ambled past. They where literally in range to walk on me and the only reason I didn't start flailing my ax was because of how successful my last 3-4 zombie kills where.

To put it into perspective; an average sidewalk width was all the real-estate I had to my person at the moment, no tall grass or shrubs between us and as close, as a creepy guy sitting next to you on the bus; they ambled along. "Humph, that's interesting" I thought as the broken leg icon taunted me forcing me to crawl. I'd managed to sneak my way past over two dozen zombies and take out a good half of them by the time I made it to an enter-able building, to be honest I was hoping for a pub as those are some of the rich spots on the loot maps I've found floating on the web. I went threw and started checking rooms until I heard someone over voice chat.

Considering my last encounter with a player I figured it was a bandit but I was so fresh off the beach that it didn't matter weather he actually killed me. If he was in the same condition as the last one I had a fighting chance. I got the obligatory "friendly" out of the way in case he actually was and started crawling around the ground floor before getting stuck in a door way. The downside of crawling is that you can get hung up on a cheeto in shag carpeting and run the risk of horribly maiming yourself if you bend the wrong way coming out of a door. Like a fool I said I was stuck in a door way and the guy had time to search for me as I managed to free myself. Without so much as a word he appeared over me and put 4 bullets from a Macarov in my spine and that was all she wrote.

I learned a very valuable lesson towards looting thanks to taking a zombie to the femur. They can see you from pretty far if your at a stand or crouch but if you are an inch worm its like you don't exist. Just be weary of that last exposure bar on your meeter because that's the difference between hiding and getting curb stomped. Secondly the life lesson with bandits is to always have a bandage handy and to be Mr.Nice-Guy while conservative safe at the same time in those chance encounters. Squeeze off a warning shot first and head for the hills. If you both aren't looking for a confrontation then the likely outcome is that you break in opposite directions. If you find yourself face to face with a bandit giving chase then, well; at least you got the first shot off. Remember aim for something substantial so you have time to run and give them incentive not to chase you down. Finally when in a pinch zombies make good backup if you can wrangle them towards your intended target, something bandits could learn from. Death by zombie is a legitimate tactic even if you don't get the points for the kill.

Good hunting and good luck surviving! Back to the wasteland of Chernarus for me!
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: Reflexive Fire, Expendable Few, Spinward Fring B5
  • Watching: OTA TV
  • Playing: bf3 sparingly
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
Recent tensions have been lifted while more RL drama unfolds. My reprieve of stresses from internet battles has come to an intermission while I get rained on for factors beyond my control by housemates and family. I can't help but pout a little at the inter personal relationships as people stress about things I both neither have control over nor have a particular part in other than being member of this commune.

I'm heading off today towards another day labor staffing agency in the hopes of getting work to put me threw until the end of next month. I'm kind of bewildered on the logic behind it other than the basic premise that we could use the inflow of cash into the house, considering present dramas. I'd be more than happy to get a steady job and travel for it since 2/3rds of the public transit system for the metro area is at my finger tips though as anyone can attest rite now the job market sucks.

After the band breaks up come the end of next month I won't be able to rely on the place I'll be going to for temp assignments. I won't have transportation by then. Its kind of contingent on getting a job that a vehicle other than a bus is involved, at least so I hear. I haven't actually gone down to the office yet and apparently its about a 2 hour process of being prodded and probed during the application process.

Oh well nothing I don't expect from it by now. I'm just about the only person in the house who can pass a drug test and doesn't have some kind of lean or garnishment on my paycheck. $60 there abouts a day is better than digging thew whats left of my state tax return...
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: reading?
  • Watching: OTA TV
  • Playing: fun is illegal, haven't you heard?
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
I figured I'd write something so my page wasn't so stale. the last journal about SOPA PIPA is a bit dated so I'll bump it off my front page.

new news same as old news folks. RL drama mixed in with old battles on the net. garbage in garbage out. moving along...

Ryo
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: reading?
  • Watching: OTA TV
  • Playing: fun is illegal, haven't you heard?
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
I woke up to a rude awakening this morning when I went threw to check some of my messages on DA. On the front page where random journals are mixed in with news posts I found a journal that someone had written that said that SOPA was passed. This isn't the case but my heart stopped for a few beats and I almost passed out, seriously I was that freaked. The journal was a rant and then it went on into other wild claims that the bill was renamed to something else and passed. After hitting up some mainstream news sites I got a little comfort from the fact that this rabble-rouser was just stirring things up.

I was tempted to leave him an angry message for scaring the crap out of me but that's just what his message was designed to do.

We all know about how MegaUpload was taken down yesterday [1-19-2012]. Even if they can fight off the legal recourse of the indictments and seizures of property its unlikely that they will be back on their feet before some form of the SOPA and PIPA bills pass. The move by law enforcement was a tactical attempt by the RIAA and MPAA to cripple MU from doing business if they do escape punishment from these seemingly trumped up charges. While they will be grandfathered from prosecution of the SOPA and PIPA powers of the entertainment industry; they will essentially be required by law to make the necessary changes to their service before they open their doors again. Contracts will have expired for storage rental in their cloud, hardware will have to be globally reconfigured and hundreds of IT techs will be needed to do this. The cost of getting all this squared away is probably in the thousands of dollars just for the programing end of it but doing it all in days or even weeks will likely cost millions.

By this method they will have essentially destroyed any hope of MU returning, provided these bills pass. The same can be said for other business on line. Services like YouTube, LiveStream and Join.me will be required to make these kinds of radical changes to adapt to the legislation overnight likely causing a massive service blackout as the businesses who can make the changes sprint to put them into effect. For start up services or content services like those mentioned the consequence will likely be so catastrophic that they will be forced to close their doors. They can't control what their users post and at a great cost for failing to do so they would close their doors so their customers didn't make them accomplices from the raised bar of copyright liability.

That isn't all, other start ups like DeviantArt, InkBunny, FurAffinity, SheezyArt and any number of other currently legitimate mainstream communities will freeze. By the volume of content they provide vs. the amount of revenue they make from advertisements the lifeline of these businesses will be to easily severed and no one but the most desperate and loyal patrons will come to their rescue and sadly it won't be enough to keep these services going.

This isn't the end of the internet its just the end of the American host, websites will pick up and leave the United States in droves. For a while advertisements will stay on American shores but they too will go over seas. The only saving grace for communities like FA will be if the administration and ownership of the business is in a non extradition country that is outside of US jurisdiction of law. As we have seen with The Pirate Bay and MegaUpload this is only so effective.

While these sites operated for years without interference of international government the forces at work by the United States Department of Justice did manage to raid facilities and in the latter example actually arrest the CEO of the corporation the believed responsible for these "heinous" (written sarcastically) acts of copyright infringement. While those businesses will be free to continue to operate the owners and staff members will be essentially imprisoned in what ever country they find refuge in. Safe from extradition to courts which would seal them away but unable to leave for fear of the legal reprisal due to these pieces of legislation.

And what of the Hollywood companies during all this? They have been rich this entire time, they have been made to hurt a little by the consequence of the piracy they enabled by hiding their head in the sand to technology and software. While using the DMCA as a weapon against their own consumers they ignore the state of the media they release, instead of fixing the problems the cry out for more power while abusing what they already have against everyday citizens.

Children, mothers and fathers, Students and even government employees have been convicted and fined with penalties meant for organized crime. Foreign citizens have been extradited to the US for prosecution for something as simple as downloading music. If these bills pass they will still be rich and everyone, the world over, will be poorer for it. They will control ever piece of media with an iron grip on distribution and usage. "Piracy" , as they see it, won't stop it will just go further underground. Those services that haven't been making money sharing it ["pirated" content] will surely start just to pay the the bills to keep their services running.

The entertainment industry needs to fix the problem before they compound it. They have spent to long ignoring the problems with how they do business. While its true they have been bleeding cash its not because people are evil its because their outdated business model enables people to abuse the innocent nature of file sharing. DRM is not enforced, it is not universal a crossed all media and when it is, it's incompatible with everyday devices that consumers own. People find it easier to buy the broken forms of physical packaged digital media and rip the content into naked [insecure] formats and the "bad" people share those same files online.

The system of abuse starts with the way the entertainment industry is handling their products. DRM needs to be enforced and it needs to be easy to use so that consumers will tolerate using it. In this Digital Millennium we expect to find our entertainment online. Hulu YouTube and Pandora are wildly popular services. Itunes and Amazon have seen a massive jump in business in the wake of the MU take down however these sources of legitimate content won't last so long as people still have the opportunity to easily find the content from these outdated forms of digital media distribution.

The entertainment industry started all this mess, it time they fixed it and its shouldn't be by giving them a bigger stick.
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: reading?
  • Playing: nothing at the moment
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
well I'm unemployed again. Amazon quite simply ran out of work for the pile of temps they had just laying around (in some cases almost literally) I'm glad I escaped the first few waves of cullings but round 4 or 5 caught up with me last night just after break. I got tagged with the "conventional" way to end an assignment but some of the bad examples of attendance abusers got the ax in a different way. when they came in for work their badges didn't work. they where told at the door that they where let go. At the beginning of the day they had a big meeting about a survey that they had everyone fill out for willingness to learn PIT equipment (forklifts and electric pallet jacks), if people answered no for any reason they where shown the door less than 30 minuets into their shift. Then there was my release, I managed to escape the list walkers for the past week but my name came up. They grabbed about 10-15 people at a time and pulled us aside telling us it was "for a meeting, we don't know about what" a very political answer with the vague portion of the truth embedded in it.

The meeting was exactly what everyone feared, we where pulled into a conference room with a few sheets of paper work and a diminutive box of chocolates in front of us, thanked for our time and hard work and then released back out into the wild. A few people where a little heated; its not hard to read peoples faces in a situation like that but seeing as how I wasn't surprised I didn't get mad. I took the time to thank the Integrity Staffing managers and the Amazon ones that where present.

The Area Manager I worked under was in the room as I walked out and he looked heart broken. on the verge of tears, not crocodile tears either. He's a genuinely nice guy and I feel bad for him. he's been with the company for a few years. I couldn't imagine standing threw that once and he's done it a few times. I'm glad I got to work with him and shake his hand before I left. If I have the opportunity to come back to Amazon I hope I get to work under him again because it was a genuine pleasure to have his company during a shift. People like him made me want to come to work every day and do a good job because I actually was appreciate. I felt like I was actually working for the customer the whole time instead of working for the company while trying to have a little bit of quality in my work the customer would appreciate. Amazon really is a different kind of business, I wish my time with them was longer because I really enjoyed it.

Unlike a few people I talked to while I was there I don't have any brighter prospects lined up. I searched a little but I haven't been able to find any more work. I'm going to call the temp agency today and hopefully get in contact with someone who can point me towards another placement. I'm also going to start looking for other warehouse jobs. lacking any luck at that I'm going to be heading back to the Plasma Center for my biweekly donations.

I'm hoping that all my refurbishment purchases are done for the foreseeable future too because now that I'm out of work again I'm just not going to have the money to pay for anything. I'm wondering if Plasma is going to be enough to keep the lights on. I don't think I'm even going to have enough on the side for cigarettes. So I might just be quitting smoking in the most uncomfortable way possible. we'll see which way the wind blows though. Thankfully everything took a shit on me about the same time so it could be brought back up to working order while I had the money to fix it. Any other time this year I probably would have tossed the broken dream in the garbage since I just didn't have the money to fix it.

I think my last major fix of the season is going to be my bike. With what money I have left on my person I took the front wheel down to a local bike shop thats just down the street. They don't sell anything to do with disc breaks so I can't buy any new parts but thankfully they can at least service the hub for me. Its a few years old so the hub should probably be replaced but I think if the wheel turns I can stomach riding it while its pitted to hell and back. At least with the stock hub on it I won't attract any more attention than it should. It holds on to the petunia of "beater status" and no one will want to steal it. I can't say the same about the shiny new seat post and ​rack but I plan on taking those with me or locking them to something so they don't walk off.

I'm going to be sending my crap motor back in today, hopefully for a decent replacement otherwise I'm going to return it one more time and just get a refund after I eat half the price in return costs. I'll be sure to leave that in the review for the merchant. I'm sure they will love me after that but if the products they sell turn out to be crap then they don't deserve to try and fleece anyone else. The shipping alone on the motor is roughly $50 which I could put towards something else. If I have to send it back again they will hear about it in all caps rage.

In an update on my computer woes. I'm going to have to reinstall W7 because they just don't code things like they used to. I'm still putting away on WinXP because even as easy as it is to infect/corrupt its really hard to render it useless with hardware changes. I did a restore using the XP CD and it works just fine, meanwhile I had to find someone in the neighborhood with a W7 SP1 CD for $40 in collateral (which I got back by the way) so I could find out that MS made sure the OS can't be recovered from swapping hardware; its a feature folks, not a bug.

I have the key for it but I'm going to have problems activating it because its an OEM sticker that I stuck on the CD sleeve after carefully removing it from a friends case. The key is one that pirates got a hold of and now I have to send in a scanned copy every time I have to reactivate my copy of W7, what a hassle. At least XP is working though I shrank the drive down so small its like working on a disc less terminal PC since I only have 10 gigs at my disposal and 6 of them are taken up by windows and what ever crap I have installed rite now. After I installed the updated drivers I had to delete the exe's because I was running out of space. oh well, its working for now and I have the time to myself to actually fix it, assuming the lights don't go out in the mean time...

Happy Holidays™ people, thanks for reading and I hope to write back at you all soon.

Ryo

p.s. stop the SOPA bill from passing or sites like this are done for! Google "SOPA" for more info!

  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: reading?
  • Playing: nothing at the moment
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
Well I'm back after a very eventful weekend. As I'm sure anyone who's read my last few journals knows I've been experiencing the holidays with a financial sour tang in my mouth  and yesterday it happened again. the liquid cooler on my PC died and spit grease or oil into the coolant rendering everything in the system useless including the system its self.

I was hoping i could just reinstall the heat sync cradle but unfortunately the parts are unaccounted for so I had to run down to the electronics store and buy a new MOBO because they where out of the mounts I needed. I ended up spending about $60 though I need to take about $20 of it back because its the wrong stuff. I bought a new aircool heat sync and some thermal paste but the heatsync the guy at the store handed me was for Intel not AMD so its useless to me. So I'm stuck with the manufacturer brick that came with another AM2 CPU i bought a while back, thank god for backups.

I spent all day yesterday either fretting about how everything I own has taken a shit on me this year or working on my computer until I finally got it up and running. So far I'm not a huge fan of MSI but its doing what it needs to but they make doing a dry run of the board as difficult as possible since it needs both the memory and the CPU seated to even load the BIOS, a step I didn't have to risk on many of my other boards but oh well, I'm committed now. I'm not all the way back up to steam though, I'm working under Windows XP rite now because I have to find some documentation for 7 before I can reactivate it.

I wanted to hit Landis cyclery on Sunday but replacing/repairing my bike will be put on hold for at least another week. It sucks that I was told point blank by one of my room mates no one expects a Christmas this year and I've been trying to get past the hurdles to actually get something for everyone but I haven't even made it so far as the door to my house because I've been backed up with all these unexpected failures of everything conceivable in my possession.

I think if Christmas is bought by me at all this year its going to be late. at least we have each others company no matter how frustrating that company may be, happy holidays people and I hope your season is a bit brighter than mine.
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: reading?
  • Playing: nothing at the moment
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
Ok now its just getting into the realm of cosmic humor. I do see how funny it is in one of the most frustrating ways possible, if it happened to anyone else it would be freaking hysterical. Yeah my bike is falling apart again. I took the motor off and threw back on the parts I took off; minus the handlebar grips because I cut those away, and hopped on for a test ride by heading down to the grocery store and my front wheel dropped 3-4 bearings. I won't know until I open the cup and have a look. Thankfully it was a gradual screeching halt rather than an abrupt stop like Bait did to me. I heard the bearings hit the ground and then my bike ground to a halt. I thought it was the caliper to my disc breaks until I noticed they weren't even touching the disc. I tried spinning my wheel but it only got tighter then I tried the other way and it started to wobble in the forks and another bearing fell out. I decided to take this ride at close to 11p.m. So I have absolutely not delusion that I'm going to find them unless I walked a few paces over the street with an elector-magnet, which currently is missing from my arsenal.

I think I might have disturbed some kind of spiritual order with the bicycle gods by putting a motor on the thing and now its coming back to me. I figure that for about another $30 I can buy a hub and my bike will hold onto the beater status that has kept it from getting stolen so far but I need to learn how to lace the rim so I don't bend it so far out of shape it becomes a Möbius. I understand the basics of the lacing order I just lack the tools to do it other than a spoke wrench I managed to acquire from my time at Wal-Mart a few Christmases ago; that's another story though.

Or I can drop another $100 and get a shiny new per-built wheel but if I added another $60 to that figure I could just get a new bike, hell for the money I've spent trying to put a motor on my bike I could have bought a small fleet and rented them out.

My next headache is that I haven't even done any Christmas shopping yet. I want to kick myself because here I am the week before and I haven't anything to show for it other than a nice big headache and every time I try and type something that starts with bi, either I'll finish it with ke or the spell checker will try and throw bicycle in there. One of us is showing signs of obsessive compulsive disorder but I'm not sure which one...

I have an idea of what I want to buy people for Christmas unfortunately now that its swooped in for the kill I don't think I have enough money for everything I want to buy that's not to say that any of it will even still be in the stores by the time I actually get off my ass to go buy it. Lacking reliable transportation and shopping for presents with the people you are buying it for kind of turns me off to it. I might end up just getting everyone loaded visa cards and sitting shopping out again. Either that or hitting a pawn shop that's between home and work along the bus route I take just so its as convenient cop-out; I would defiantly lose class points on that route. Then there's wrapping, I'm thinking toilet paper this year.

Ugh. I'm going to watch a movie and go to sleep. Hopefully my bicycle won't suffer the effects of rapid aging since I put it outside. I'd die laughing if I just found a rusted out relic against the house tomorrow.

Goodnight!

Ryo
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: Dead Mech
  • Playing: nothing at the moment
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
So my bicycle motor died last night. I got two full days use out of it and it started to fall apart. It sounds a little familiar but thankfuly this time I kept my composure and didn't yank any power coards.

This motor is starting to seem like a cursed investment. I'm going to be sending it back as soon as I go back to work and pick it up. I got stranded at work last night for four hours because after I hooked the battery back up it putted a crossed the front of the ware house for ten feet, then died. The lights on the handel bars are literlay the only thing left working on it. The cassette came lose on it on the way into work so I couldn't even pedal it home as a bicycle. I didn't walk because my room mates would have woken up half way threw my trip to take the kids to school so I just tried to carpet bomb them with phone calls hopeing someone would be annoyed awake by the constant ringing.

Needless to say it didnt work. I ended up begging a ride off someone who lives in my neighborhood and leaving all my gear at Amazon including the deralic bike. I managed to keep my composure even after I acidentaly dropped the battery while I was checking the connectors and wiring. I flattened a corner but I don't think it did any perminant damage to the battery since its still sealed. Thankfuly it missed my foot by about two inches.

I thought that I had the motor figured out and was going to accept it as a quarky machine but since I threw it on it just got progressivly worse. I'm sending it back as soon as I can take it back down to frame and hoping the replacment works better than the one I have now. If anything I'm just going to get a front wheel kit so I don't have to deal with the drama of fixing gears. The speed of the motor is good enough that I don't have to worry about the performance of traction, of coarse thats assuming that the replacment works any better.

We will see however. I'm going to be livid if the merchant decides to charge me shipping for the defect replacement but we'll see.
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: Dead Mech
  • Playing: nothing at the moment
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
So the weathers cleared and I get to take my bike to work today for the first full stress test of range on my new motor. I was a bit squeamish to take it out the past two days because rain an electric motors don't mix very well. Not so much for the battery but the motor its self. I don't know how well the thing is sealed so I didn't want to chance water getting in it and ruining it completely less than a month after I bought the damn thing.

A nice storm system passed threw Arizona for the past two days. Starting late Sunday and ending early Wednesday morning. Mostly drizzles but the rain fall added up to a lot of puddles. Just standing outside for a cigarette break at work I was almost soaked to the bone just from the light haze in the air, since all the chairs where wet in the smokers pit the area under the shelters was standing room only so I stood off to the side. Thankfully I haven't gotten sick again but time will tell on that one, I do feel a little run down today but I wonder if that's because I woke up after only 4 hours of sleep this morning when the kids had to go to school.

In other news at work. My shift has gone back down to normal eight hour shifts from the mandatory ten we have been on since October. I was just starting to get used to them too. I'm already missing those 50 hour overtime checks, I made more in a week than I made in a pay period at Wal-Mart. It pains me that this setup might only end up being temporary but I'm going to hold on to hope until I get the official word that my assignment has run its coarse.

At least with shorter shifts I can hope for a better sleep schedule, sleeping in won't completely screw me for a week by losing out on personal time. I might just get more stuff to work on since I'm feeling slightly more inspired since I let go of the grand design of actually getting a professional job. Stuff I've got sitting in my sketchbook is some fan art for a concept game I want to write out but more on that later if anything actually comes of it. For now its just character sketches and background blurbs in the margins.

Today is a short journal because I felt like putting down a status update before I run out the door in another 15-30 minuets. I had enough today to make mention of so I hope you enjoyed the considerably shorter read today.

Peace out!

Ryo
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: Dead Mech
  • Playing: nothing at the moment
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
So I got an electric motor and installed it on my bicycle. It was a bit of an adventure to get the damn thing working because of a few hiccups and long put off repairs that needed to be taken care of. I've dumped close to $600 into my bike now, considering it was free the value has gone up considerably.

From the get go it was riddled with extra work, first I had to buy the kit and have a battery custom wired. Then I had to fit the thing and realized that either its missing some very important washers or the manufacturer put them on in the wrong order, I needed a cargo rack for the battery and then to top it off I needed to buy a caliper for my front disc break because the back tire sits slightly off to one side compared to the stock one I pulled off and the rear V-breaks didn't fit anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I'm complaining yes but only about the process I went threw to get it going. The inaugural flight of the hippopotamus was a rousing success. It doesn't have the torque to pop wheelies or anything but it gets up to full steam pretty fast. Its top speed is in the neighborhood of about 20 mph which is faster than the average speed of a city bus in the near ten miles I'll be traveling to and from work on my daily commute. Hopefully it won't end up taking me longer than an hour to get where I'm going or I'll run out of juice; we'll see come Monday when I put it threw the stress trial of getting me there.

Its been sitting around for almost two weeks because of some technical difficulties, the flight of the hippopotamus was delayed on account of stupidi- I mean oversight. I threw the kit together on Monday of this week and raced out the door for work and realized there was a critical flaw in my assembly. I bolted the thing directly to my frame how it looked in the manual. Unfortunately the picture included an extra washer on both sides that my kit lacked. I shrugged and tightened down the bolt and made out the door on battery power and about half way down my street I felt the urge to spin the pedals and discovered that they where firmly locked in place by something. After a quick inspection I realized that the missing washer was supposed to keep the rear cassette from binding up against the inside of my frame and in its configuration it wasn't going to be turning at all.

I was just about ready to deal with it if not for the fact that the pedals where locked in an unnatural position. I would have ended up snapping my chain or worse destroying my derailleur because I have a habit of putting all my body weight into the push-off from a stop light. So I hung it up for a week until I got paid.

I've been stewing over the glitches all week and I considered sending the thing back for a front wheel kit though I'd have to eat $50 for shipping because its the only part of the purchase that's not refundable. Thankfully I didn't have to because I got it working and that money went into the investment of my disc brake calipers, which I got at a nice discount from my new favorite bike shop because it was left over from a set that was pulled from. I splurged a little while I was picking it up and grabbed a decent bike lock that is more difficult to defeat than common U-locks by how its constructed. It was a little more expensive than I imagined it would be but hopefully I'll get what I pay for out of it. At least with this lock my bike has some kind of warranty to it now so long as I register the lock in the near future. I find it funny that it will cover the cost of the investment into the system if it gets stolen. That said I could buy a new motor but I'll have to find a nice cheepy bicycle to put it on if it ever comes to that particular flavor of heart break.

Work at Amazon is going pretty good. I finally found my rhythm in an area where I'm not under to much strain. I can keep busy all day and the time just flies by. I think I'm getting a little to acclimated to these ten hour shifts though. My days will probably seem way to short if and when the facility goes back to eight hour shifts. Hopefully the temps, such as myself, will be around that long.

I'm hoping to get perm but I think I should probably expect to get let go. I'm one out of about 600 people working the warehouse not including the close to 150 Amazon perms on staff. I haven't had the best performance and I was sick a little two weeks ago and had to call out a day because I couldn't stand up strait when I saw the strobes on the back of the fork lifts. I took voluntary time off, which doesn't count against me, just to get out of the warehouse the night before because it was to much for me, I could barely stay on my feet and almost kissed pavement more times than I can count.

On that note, I'm going to keep my fingers crossed just in case.

Other than the bike motor and updates with work its been a pretty slow couple of months since my last report. Mostly because I've been so busy at work I only have a few hours between work and sleep to do anything. I haven't quite found that rhythm yet and I've been fluctuating my sleep schedule between about 6-10 hours of sleep depending on how bad I messed up my cycle over the weekends. It usually only leaves me about 1-3 hours of personal time before I head out the door which I haven't been able to do much more than wake myself up enough to get a bead on where the days heading. The less time I have to wake up the more likely I've been to sleep in later threw out the week.

This week in particular with all the excitement I almost completely slept threw Saturday again. I didn't roll out of bed until 8pm, 14 hours earlier I settled in for the night. Yet another reason to hope for eight hour days, though I'll be missing the overtime checks before I even stop getting them ^^;

In other news the heater in my rental house died. Apparently the magnets in some motor shattered rendering the whole heater section useless. My brother and another room mate crawled up onto the roof and fiddled with it to discover the problem though I wish they would have just left well enough alone and called the land lord. For all we know the damn thing could have been under warranty; if it was now its our bag if the whole thing needs to be replaced. Just like my brother not to call the super. In our last apartment he refused to call maintenance for problems with the toilet until finally the handle broke off. He tried to rig it himself rather than sucking it up and calling someone to fix it and I ended up paying for the parts because of it.

I can understand his reasoning behind the toilet, I have a cat we weren't supposed to have in that apartment though now we have nothing to hide other than a few holes in the walls and a busted window . Damages I'll probably be paying for because no body else seems to be interested in fixing them. I digress though, we have about half a year to worry about how they have started to add up and hopefully I can put enough back by the end of my assignment with Amazon to cover it.

Well folks this concludes another journal, I'm a bit tuckered out today from getting all the tedium of my bike work done as well as some other errands that needed doing so I'm going to cut this off here. Hope you had a nice read!

Ryoku, signing off
  • Listening to: dated music on my PSP
  • Reading: Dead Mech
  • Playing: nothing at the moment
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: water
I've been saving up for an electric motor for my bicycle. I got the motor in the mail on Monday or Tuesday but I have yet to put it on. Mostly because it doesn't have a battery yet which is why I'm waiting. I have an order down at the Batteries Plus+ for a custom battery pack to run it but it won't be ready until tomorrow at the earliest. I had to order online because finding a local shop who carries motors at a decent price is like pulling teeth and finding one that isn't tacked onto a $1200 frame is just about impossible, lest for one store. I'm stuck with madeinchina product because American made is about $250-400 out of my price range. I digress though, hopefully with what I have I'll be able to make a round trip to and from work without pedaling and I won't have to rely on my room mates for rides in the wee hours of the morn'. I'm really looking forward to the freedom of having my own transportation but I'm starting to get a little paranoid about it.

All I have is a wire lock which I know better than to trust for more than a 15 minuet stop at Wal-Mart. A bicycle with a wire lock is bad enough of a temptation for a thief but an electric motor is enough to tempt a more professional thief into stealing my bike in less time. I'm going to have to get a better lock or at least make it less appealing to steal by taking the front wheel and battery with me everywhere I go.

I was able to afford such a thing because I recently got a job at an Amazon.com warehouse for the season. Its a really well paying job and easy work but I made no mistake in assuming it wouldn't be working hard at it. We've been on ten hour shifts for the past two months and are still steaming along at the Black Friday pace even though the incoming freight has slowed down. The outgoing has picked up to a blistering pace with pace which has the pickers working 12 hour shifts to keep up with the 70k orders a minuet that Amazon is getting a crossed their network of facilities around Cyber Monday.

I'm starting to get exhausted from the ten hour shifts so I'm a bit leery about volunteering for the outbound department. I could use the money but I don't know if I could take the strain of two more hours on top of what I already work even if the expected pace is fairly casual compared to Wal-Mart and other retailers.

I don't know if how hard I've been working has anything to do with it but I called out on Friday because I felt sick on Thursday and just as bad when I woke up on Friday morning (at 2pm); Thursday I thought I could handle it but when I actually got to work every time I saw a strobe light on the back of a forklift or heard more than one pallet transport truck or a picker honk their horns I got so dizzy I almost kissed the floor more times than I can count. I ended up taking voluntary time off at the end of the day at roughly the 8 hour mark. I still feel a little woozy but hopefully my three day weekend will get me back up to speed for the weeks to come.

My assignment at Amazon.com ends in January when my 1200 hours are up although that time might come up early with all the over time; I wonder if they accounted for that when they hired me so I wouldn't be let go before the end of the season. I'm working threw a temp agency so I'm trying to get hired on perm though that is a fairly lofty goal considering that there are probably 500 or more people just like me who have the same goal. Most of them work harder than I have and have 0 attendance points. A record I broke by calling in on Friday because it turned out to be nearly unbearable to work in my condition. Oh well, I'm not going to work any less hard because I doubt that this will become a full time opportunity though I still hope it turns out that way. Its money I didn't and wouldn't have if I where still looking for opportunities elsewhere.

I wonder how I'll be able to stomach making minimum wage again after working for Amazon. Its kind of like the pay stub shock after working with 2Wire for a pay period. Making more than $10 an hour is something rare in the US unless your a specialist of some kind, and after working at Wal-Mart for three years I didn't think that the skill paid so much until Amazon dispelled the myth.

Other than getting over this funk I can say I'm doing pretty well for the moment. Things are quiet on the home front. I've had a little more inspiration to doodle than in the past few months since I moved in where I was threatened to be put out. Its slightly irksome that the person who threatened me with it up and quit her job and now is living off of the rest of the house in the same way she berated me for.

Likewise I'm a bit jealous that the offer I had to take the time to work on my portfolio seems to have been transferred but maybe its for the best. I should probably give up on trying to get a job in the entertainment industry anyway. If I can't seem to get a project done while being told I have a dead line to find a job then how could I make a deadline in a studio when my job depended on it.

I'd rather eat the food I helped pay for than stomach the glares for eating a snack sized portion as a meal after spending six hours on UV's. I'm almost thirty and I've been out of college for six years without getting into the industry. I think its time to face facts and call this what it is, a very expensive hobby and nothing more.

I'm not going to stop making art but I'm not going to put the same weight on it I did before. So instead of going back to work on my portfolio I'm going to be looking for a full time job if Amazon expires without getting on perm there.

Anyway,

Happy holidays people.

Ryo
  • Eating: economically
Well my situation has been down graded from imminent demise to one of dire need. The power hasn't been shut off yet but only after the rest of the house did some strategising and came up with a short term solution to the problem. A payment was made towards the bill and the lights are still on but we're still in trouble and now only are in arrears of somewhere in the neighborhood of about $1400 instead of $2k.

I also found out that the temp agency I'm trying to work threw canceled the assignment of close to 200 people so I'm not alone in my position of remaining jobless though its still just as dire for me. If I don't get work by the time my brother moves out I'm being hurled to the curb with him. If that statement doesn't describe how destabilized the housing situation is then I don't know how else to put it.

I apologize to anyone who reads my journal yesterday. I panicked when it was just casually dropped that the power might go with the stroke of midnight. Though we could still use it; I'm going to be taking down the donation button for now.

I jumped to the conclusion that it was the end of the world when a solution was found in the eleventh hour. Thankfully the crisis has been averted and the power won't be shut off hopefully at least until the end of the billing cycle.

Again I apologize for the drama and hopefully I can keep my head if something like this happens again.



<old drama>
Well I have some bad news to tell, that is if anyone cares. Its come to my attention that in the next two to twelve hours my power is going to get turned off. I recently got hired on at a temp agency and before my first day of work the "assignment" I had was cancelled. Which means I'm still out of work but I have a job; I'm just waiting to be told where to go...

Anyway, as for the electricity situation. I'm in a situation I have absolutely no control over. My plasma money is just helpful enough to keep gas in the tanks from time to time so I'm going to be off line for an extended ammount of time. The ammount of time depends on how long it will take the house to pay back a $2000 bill that we have been back up on since just about day one of moving in.

it came as kind of a suprise that the power was getting shut off in the first place when my room mates told me "you do know the power is getting shut off rite?" as I walked out for a cigarette with a Maya project open that I hadn't saved in almost 4 hours. My first order of business was to save and close out everything I had open, my second is writing this Journal that will be cross posted where applicable.

A coupple of journals ago I said that I wasn't desperate enough to beg for donations, well I think that situation has officaly changed. We have a fridge full of food and by tommarow night it will all be going in the trash. I've signed up for a paypal donation button which I'll post the link to at the end of this journal.

If you could throw a few dollars at me any little bit would help. At this point, being down on my luck as far as I am, I don't expect much but I can at least hope for the best. While the lights are out I'll be making pilgrimages to mecas of WiFi at Starbucks and McDonalds and what have you but I'll likely only blow threw once or twice a week. (if only to charge things for an hour or so)

again please make a donation if you have something you can spare!

Till I'm back on my feet,

Ryoku

</old drama>
  • Eating: economically
I'm not going to say I didn't see this coming. I did make comments along the line but it did happen much sooner than I expected. I'm in a difficult position folks, I recently went threw multiple moves and had to quit my job as a result because I couldn't get a transfer. I live in a house with eight people, my brother and his new wife, her kids and some extended family are all bunked with me.

Now for the problem,

when this grand plan was laid down only two people had incomes but last week my sister in law got into a bad car wreck taking the house down to one income. I need to start contributing money FAST or utilities will start getting shut off. Since I moved in I've been wall papering the area with applications but now I need any work I can find so COMMISSIONS ARE VERY MUCH OPEN!

If I don't start contributing more than throwing my plasma money in the bill pot then not only am I going to disappear completely for a long while but I might have to sell off my possessions to keep a roof over my head. This situation is THAT serious, if I don't help out soon we might have to find a different arrangement, i.e. move out!

I'm not asking for donations, I'm just asking for a little work. I think my prices are fair considering the work that goes into the various media I practice in. I do pretty standard pricing for sketch/ink/color pieces. I can finish a sketch page in an hour or two, inking not far behind that, Color something in a few hours. A drawn piece shouldn't take but a few days to finish and I can send it to you if you prefer a physical copy!

$5 Sketch pages
$10 Penciled Pages
$25 Inks
$40 Ink/Color

for 3D CGI stuff I charge a little more because it takes longer to finish. Modeling usually doesn't take that long. I can get the bulk of a character done in a day, sculpting a high quality version takes a day or two. Texturing can take from a few hours to a week, same with a complex rig (basic rigs take maybe an hour) the more there is to do typical the longer it takes.

$50 Base Mesh
$75 Animation Mesh
$100 Production Rig

$25 Props
$50-75 Environments

you get a lot of bang for your buck with 3d stuff since its completely reusable. Each tier comes with the contents of the lower tier

base mesh is a game quality (untextured) texture ready model. It comes with a high quality sculpt of the character. If all your interested in is a posed model I'll just work on the HQ sculpt and make paint overs for your character. You'll get the base mesh, HQ sculpt and any pose variation you ask for.

An animation mesh is a "Game Ready" character, the game in question is second life. I'll texture and rig the Base mesh tier either with a compatible Second life skeleton or one that fits the character better. It will be rigged with simple IK animation controls. Comes with 1 texture set (texture files for color normal ect...) and a skeleton.

A production mesh is a much higher quality version of the Animation mesh. The differences are mostly in the rigging (animation controls) which will make the character easier to animate since the controls are much more intuitive. Since the price is so high it comes with an additional feature of either a Prop, dynamics driven (Physics) rig, an additional texture set or a moderately detailed environment. Comes with base mesh and HQ sculpt, a production rig, and a texture set, plus a feature of your choosing.

Props are different package, by themselves they are complex objects that are not characters. Things like plants furniture weapons that require their own attention to detail, their own animation support, to be believable. Most props are considered "Game ready" and are optimized for first and world views as well as being LOD'ed (Levels of Detail) and have a rig for animation support if necessary;Comes with LOD geometry, a texture set and rigged if necessary.

An environment is its own package. Its basically a grab bag of optimized props, it costs more because of the volume of props in an environment package. Props lack complicated animation support and the LOD of a prop package because the scene is optimized as a whole to be used as a back drop. It might be more effective to buy an environment than 3-4 props for simple objects like dishware and furniture are involved. I do include a simple background with posed characters but anything more complicated than a light-stage or a rough background needs to be purchased separately. If you need a really complicated background the price goes up farther because there is more work to do and it takes exponentially longer to optimize. Environments are packaged as a scene file (containing all positioned props) it comes with geometry and necessary texture sets.

If you want to see a list of example art work either check my gallery or go to this forums.furaffinity.net/threads… for a more relevant list. WARNING contains some adult content
  • Listening to: nothing, sound hurts...
  • Reading: Origins (Spinward Fringe)
  • Watching: nothing importatn
  • Playing: Metro 2033
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: caffeine free beverages
Well folks it looks like its that time again. I'm moving once more and its not under the best of circumstances either. It's defiantly a difficult but well meaning undertaking but not exactly the most well planned egress. I'll have a place to stay when ever I actually get where I'm going but for the moment I don't even know for absolutely certain WHERE thats going to be. I'm not going to complain though. Its a roof over my head and due to the rule of “you owe me one” I won't have to pay for it for close to a year meaning I could quit my job though thats not first on the list of things I want.

Basically the plan of attack is a two stage process of retreating out of not one but three leases either by early termination or waiting until they expire and moving three houses under one roof. All in total there will be NINE people in one house, I don't plan on hanging around long enough for everyone to discover that it was a bad idea from the get go but its either I go along with it for now or shoulder the burden of a lease I have no hope of paying on my own or living behind the walmart I worked at in a matag box.

Now as I say this I'm in the final stages of leaving the apartment I've lived in for the past three years. Everything including my desktop is either been packed up or in the final stages there of. I'm sitting here typing this on my netbook while I stair at the remnants of my desk/bed (guest bed) that I'm mythologically dissembling with my good friend king-worm after importing him to help move to improve his situation, though thats a story for him to tell.

Meanwhile the line of communication in the process of moving has been like trying to read lips from a silent film because the dialog is written in French. I don't speak French and similarly I don't speak the thought process short hand my brother douse when he tries to convey information that is a little on the important side of this undertaking; like who's getting the Uhaul trucks and when. Come to find out its my wallet thats putting that one on the road. Though thankfully I won't have to drive the damn thins.

I'm probably not going to be out of this apartment until the end of tomorrow maybe Monday so I might update this the day of final departures or the day after. At least my minor move before the boarding house concept is a short one. Its not even a crossed the state just a few cities away though it is about 12 miles away from the nearest bus stop and the biggest businesses in the area are churches and strip clubs.

Tally-ho! Lets hope I don't lose or break something important before my next report....

Ryoku out.
  • Listening to: nothing, sound hurts...
  • Reading: Origins (Spinward Fringe)
  • Watching: nothing importatn
  • Playing: Metro 2033
  • Eating: economically
  • Drinking: caffeine free beverages
Its official, I hurt myself; this time I did it my damn self too.

I've had a wonderful time in the past month all seemingly leading up to this, the crescendo of this act probably was my hard drive dieing while the climax would have to be spraining my ass.

I'm jumping ahead of myself lets look back.

Well things started off poorly with about two weeks ago my bike, not-so-lovingly called Bait, decided to buck me off on my way to work. I've had the damn thing for 10+ years though most of its service was in storage, its been repaired so many times its a wonder the wheels still turn. I call it Bait as a joke because I've been waiting for it to catastrophically break or get stolen as an excuse to buy a new one. Well the former happened first.

I went to work asked around and found out the parts I needed weren't sold at Wally-World and on my own post damage assessment getting the thing back up to working form would cost my roughly $100 or so, just in parts, so I bought a new one and a $2 wrench to strip all the parts I wanted to keep off of it, the whole charge that night was $102 and some change. I rode my new bike home and back to work the next day leaving Bait on the bike pole alone and vulnerable since I took my bike lock with me.

I come back the next day, Baits still on the bike rack and out of force of habit I lock my new bike up a few poles down. I go about my day and 8:15 minuets into my shift I take my last break and go out for a smoke when somewhere during the coarse of the break one of my co-workers looks over and comments "Hey man where's your bike?" I look over and almost cartoon like form an outline where my bike should have been and went threw the gradient of emotions of shock to rage immediately accepting that my brand new bike had been stolen about 30 minuets shy of a full 24 hours off the lot. They even took my bike lock with them.

I find a manager to tell my story to and with a compassionate look in his eye tilts his head to the side and basically tells me "That's to bad, its your problem." I don't blame him, he works more for the company than I do, its not like he could say "here's a new one" and sent me on my way; I was understandably livid so instead of exploding and punching the first baby I could find I went home a full half hour early. On my way out the door my direct supervisor tried to man handle me into getting back to work by grabbing my arm with force and stopping my brooding out the door, he's lucky I didn't turn around and punch him. As polite as I could I told him to check with the manager I just talked to and made my disgruntled self scares.

The irony of this situation has a few nuances; first was the fact that I noticed Bait completely unprotected was still sitting on its pole, granted the fact that I took the seat with me probably helped; second was that I was paid THAT night and got a bonus of, wait for it, about +$2 the cost of the bike and finally after making it home I found out that my downstairs neighbor and former room mate got his bikes pinched on the exact same night.

I couldn't even ask my friend if I could barrow his sisters bike while she owed me money. FML:1.

The rest of the week went on roughly without issue. Little things pile up and keep the brooding going. I had to fix the ring that connects the flushing arm to the flapper chain in the toilet because it rusted threw with a quick fix with a bread tie and then my Ear Buds died and I had to drop $20 to replace them.

The next FML occurred on day three of my week, I was still pissed off from getting my bike stolen and as I went to work on day two. My computer wouldn't shut down fast enough so I yanked the power cord. Not the best thing to do during shut down but the most I expected was a improper shut down scan. I wake up on day three and power up my computer and it locks up at the boot up tests at the line that reads "Checking IDE Drives" and sits there.

Sitting at my computer now damaged emotionally I lean my head into my hand and look at the screen and say  "Well Crap" and go about teching the problem. A freeze on the hard drive tests was a good clue so I started pulling drives until it passed the boot tests and systematically plugged each back in until I zeroed in on the one that was the issue.

It wasn't my OS drive, It wasn't the new terabyte I got for Christmas last year, it was my backup drive. The problem with my back up drive dieing is that it stopped being a back up when it out grew and replaced the primary drive it cloned; I meant to copy everything over to my TB but never quite got around to it. The Urk factor on this one is that not only is 450 GB gone up in a puff of smoke, Everything that I've worked on in the past 10-15 years just disappeared along with my Portfolio and Demo Reel, Music and Pictures even my porn. FML:2.

A week has passed and gone fairly quietly, other than being informed my lease expires at the end of March and not April like I thought; the apartment I planned on moving into passed me over due to some retarded communications snafu but nothing directly affecting me on a more personal level happened until Friday.

At work we had two big trucks come in and it was my supervisors last day of the work week so he was bridled and determined to make it out the door early if not on time despite the mammoth size of the trucks (4600 pieces, not including pallets or mixed boxes) and hurried everyone along, calling everyone out by name to pick up the pace while it already doubled our statistical efficiency, in layman's terms we where hauling ass. Somewhere during the first truck I got what I thought to be a bad cramp in my upper thigh and limped it off for a few minuets until I could suck it up and muscle threw it.

The huge truck, which should have taken us a little longer than two hours at a normal pace, was done in about 45 minuets. I took a victory lap and had a cigarette but by the time I came back limping from break to the back room it occurred to me that my little cramp hadn't gone away so I reported it. I told management that I'd give it another day to see if it was just a tweak and baby it as much as possible while still doing my job.

That day came and went and I went home for my weekend coming back today to go into work to find out that it seemed to have gotten worse; if by working that day on the injury or just not taking care of it on my own time I now couldn't even carry the weight of my back pack without my leg feeling like someone nailed me with a base ball bat a few hours earlier. So I told management as I clocked in and went to the doctor.

The doc told me, thankfully, it wasn't a pulled hamstring or at least that's not how he phrased it on the doctors orders. He sent me home and gave me a restriction that essentially removes me completely from the back room. I can't lift anything more than 10lbs, I can't push or pull anything more than 25lbs and I had to go home for the rest of the day.

I'm not going to say he was wrong but I wasn't exactly rooting to go back to work on this leg in the condition its in. I was a human pogo stick on Saturday limping around on one leg doing all the crap I normally do and I don't want to over compensate and screw up my good leg in the process. Considering I moved two Water pallets which after mechanical assistance require somewhere about 2-300 lbs of pulling strength. I winced when I had to lift up a 60lbs entertainment center with both legs and I couldn't even rest on my knees for more than a few seconds without feeling like someone stabbed me below the ass cheek with a pointy stick.

The screwed up part of this is I'm still capable of doing A job just not MY job. I'm basically going to be a Door Greeter until this heals and given how long my last sprain took to heal its going to be about a month and a half. From where I sit as a back room associate Door Greeting doesn't sound like that bad of a job but I've gotten accustomed to looking like a cave man for work. I get to wear shorts, I can be a little scruffy and smelling like a gym bag is acceptable considering we do all the heavy lifting in the store compared to the FRONT front end of the store where I'll have to wear a polo and khakis and fake a smile and never leave my post during my nine hour shift. Hopefully they'll give me a stool so I won't have to play up a grimace.

I've got mixed emotions on the change of venue but the real FML of this one is the physical therapy. Workman's Comp claims require you to complete all medical treatment plans. This not only means you cant miss any doctors appointments it means attending every physical therapy session which is more like gentle torture on an injury, I'm sure more so with something serious like broken bones and lacerations. My last sprain was in my left wrist and often the physical therapy seemed to do more damage than the injury its self. I hurt for a whole week afterward a session and still put in eight hours of light duty. This time it will literally be a pain in my ass since its just below the glut. FML:3

hopefully the universe has had its fun with me for the foreseeable future, I care not to speculate what other fiendish tricks the gremlins of fate have in store for me. I've had enough, maybe you can let me sit the next one out guys? I believe that things come in threes so I hope that this is the end of it and not just a prelude to some grander karmic reward. I'd rather not have a reason to add more FML entries to the list in a downward spiral to oblivion. So I'm going to take it easy for a while.

Ryoku Out.
  • Listening to: nothing, sound hurts...
  • Playing: nothing for the past few months
  • Eating: what I can afford cheaply
  • Drinking: plenty of fluids...
I'm just now recovering enough of my faculties to dread the ability to go back to work. My brother brought home the flu from work last week in the middle of my vacation giving me the worst case I've had in years. For almost a week now I have been an incoherent ball of misery hopped up on Nyquil and pain killers as I trembled and sweat 24 hours a day. About the only thing I could muster the strength to do was stumble my way to the restroom for nessicary deposits and sometimes only bearly making it.

I'm not even sure i'm well enough to go back to work but I'm sure my job will think otherwise espechily since I am 99% sure i'm going to clock in and get a write up for calling out sick on saturday. I worked for one day and almost killed my self not only by exerting myself in a high physcaly straining job but almost falling off ladders and using equipment I had no business using in my condition.

Its funny because every cowroker I walked passed told me I looked like shit but the second I tried to tell management "I've got a really bad flue" they turned around and said "So do I" and walked away. I didn't even waist a second thought calling in the next day but I'm going to pay for it today. If I'm lucky I'll be on the clock for a half hour minimum time to talk it threw with management for them to give me my write up then they'll send me home because I'm on the verge of collapse.

At the very least the trip into work won't be a complete waste, I'm out of nyquil and dayquil so dragging myself into work will give me an excuse to pick up more provisions.

Anyway. Just wanted to give the few interested parties in my recent efforts an update as to why I haven't done anything in a week. Once my head clears up and I can concentrate again I'll get back to wrok. For now I just whish I could go back to sleep. Ugh. Off to the house of pain....
  • Listening to: Pengilum
  • Playing: nothing for the past few months
  • Eating: what I can afford cheaply
  • Drinking: plenty of fluids...
Its been an interesting evening.

For the past few weeks me and my room mate have been discussing upgrading our rigs. I bought an uber processes (phenom II 965 x4 AM3) that I was using for a while. He finally got around to buying his mother board and after some drama managed to get installed and with compatible memory. We swapped processors a few days ago and I went back to my phenom II 9600 x4 AM2.

Well my room mate did all the work in swapping all the parts and pieces. He held onto my super heat sync for a few days while I used the stock heat sync from the AM3 my room mate was using. It was super loud and sounded more like a band saw than a fan so he bought a new awesome heat sync and I got mine back mostly due to fact that my rig was running a little to hot by my standards.

After I got my heat sync put back in it started running REALLY hot and I was trying to figure out why. It took me almost all day to think of the reason. My room mate has a bad habit of slathering on the thermal paste and the processor was holding a lot of heat in the paste instead of passing it onto my heat sync.

After coming to that conclusion I decided to re apply the paste myself and went about cracking my case for the Nth time this week. I managed to get everything off, cleaned, and put back together but when I powered it on my computer didn't post [i.e. for those who aren't familiar with the term it didn't come on and didn't give me a beep so I could figure out why.]

well I took it down again and tried to pull off the heat sync from the processor but they both came off the board together, the socket for AM2/3 doesn't have that strong of a grip on the processor so it was to be expected. Well when I tried to separate the CPU from the Heat sync that's where things went horribly wrong. Instead of just popping off the thermal paste I gripped a little to hard...

and bent about 23 pins, one of which was completely flat...

I managed to keep my composure and quickly went about trying to straighten them counting my lucky stars that one didn't go flying off into the night. Well after I spent about 40 minuets with a toothpick and an exacto knife (because the toothpick was to big) I finally got all the pins pointed more or less in the same direction thought all the bent ones have a little wave thing going on.

I put everything back together and prayed that it would power up which thankfully it did as I'm writing this on the same processor I almost mangled beyond repair. I don't know if I fixed the heat issues but I'll find out in a few minuets when my load tests are done (which writing this is part of believe it or not.) I'm at about 1/4th capacity of my 2.3ghz quad core running 6-7 applications that suck memory and at least one processor. Thankfully its running cooler than 55º C but I'll find out where it tops out in about an hour. If it tops out above 45º I will not be happy. Time will tell however for the short term at least I found out I'm a surgeon with an exacto =P
  • Listening to: Pengilum
  • Playing: nothing for the past few months
  • Eating: what I can afford cheaply
  • Drinking: plenty of fluids...
Eck, I know I'm a dick. I hate my life sometimes because commenting on every account activity seems like such a chore especially since I sift threw about 4 every morning ^^; I want to thank everyone who has been kind enough to note comment or fav my stuff in the past few years/months/days that I haven't replied to. Also thank the people who sent me badges and good cheer =) getting a badge has been a high point of a few days in the past few months so I thank you all for at least making my otherwise chains of shitty days bearable. I love you all!

Figured it was time for a journal update. Yes again I'm emo in writing my journals but honestly for no reason other than work sucks and its sucking the life out of me. I hope to leave the job soon but not by force (of termination) lol, and get a better job hopefully in my industry.
  • Listening to: anything i can find
  • Playing: dissdia
  • Eating: what I can afford cheaply
  • Drinking: plenty of fluids...
compared to my last journal this one is a ray of freaken sunshine =P

i got my Xbox working again

CHEERS!!!

I had to run down to napa to buy some bits and a screw driver to take the damn thing down but after i "serviced" it myself its now playing games again. i just have to put it back together again now =P

yeah! i don't have to buy a new one... at least not yet... we'll find out when i plug it into the interwebs if M$ decides to ban me for un modding my firmware hehe